HVD~
Happy Valentine’s Day Ppl.
even though it’s one ordinary, boring day in my life.
why is everything around me in the pink?
annoys me -_-
those fake love feelingz, sweet presents, strong pulsations, “honest” words, unrealizable promises and etc.
everything will fade in day or two =]
so why do we lie to ppl that we pretend we love? why do we lie to ourselves?
Just to paint better future, to built life with more lies, to dream about smthn impossible, to believe in the lie we created, we imagined, we thought, we wanted?
why don’t U ask yourselves do we need this kind of future? do u love just for one day? If u really love, make your lover fell like every day of the year is valentine’s day. Just don’t be fake people.
The way I feel
I want to scream but I cant scream
I want to run but where can I run?
I want to jump but I wont survive
I want to live but I’m not strong enough.
I want to find but nobody’s lost
Want to return but the things are just gone
I want to walk but the road fades away
What can I do? I just stand in the rain
I can’t go on. that means I have to stay
I just keep waiting but nobody’s there
I won’t regret cuz I’ve done nothing bad
I guess all I have is my endless loneliness.
Such is life~
Life is a lie.
We all lie. We all are the same, but all of us has own different role in this fake life.
We are born the same way, we all are one, but the world makes us play.
There are no such things like feelings, its survival, only the strongest will survive!
We just pretend, we lie to ourselves. We are not a bit more or less than any1.
We are same, we are one, we are liars, we are pretenders, actors, players, fighters, mortals, we are humans.
Just a bit cleverer beings from all the poor creatures on the world.
And we still carry on…
What a lie we live =]
Leaf~
Sometimes it seems like life looses it’s meaning and I’m turning off…
I see how past and future disappears and I’m not even here in present…
Like a leaf, fallen from the tree, I’m following the wind, without fighting, without feeling…
I’m flying to nowhere… but it doesn’t matter where…
I’m gonna fall down anyway and everyone will walk through me…
And ill be like that… I won’t feel pain cuz I’m used to it…
Blurred lights… shadows… ghosts…
Everything is insignificant but somewhere deep in my heart I feel that it’s not lost yet, the thing that can’t be returned
and I’m happy…
It’s like I’m still starting to hope and it seems like I’ll fly away
But at the moment when I spread my wings and prepare to fly away everything disappears… lights, feelings and even hope…
I understand that this is the end
but I’m still happy that for the moment I felt the amazing feeling of being alive…
